Found another social networking site (Ning strikes again!) on prostate cancer, but got involved as they have a group section on younger men which they clealy see as starting anywhere from 65, or 55 or 50 and on down.
I am clearly so detatched from my situation – the main thing I took from this group is that there are people younger than me (e.g. 39) and in much worse shape than me with more aggressive (gleason 9), more advance cancer than me. Having said that, there are other people who have struggled with trying to make a treatment decision like me.
It would have been good to find this site earlier as there are people whose experience it might have been good to build on – like the guy who is 58 and been on active surveillance for 6 years. I wouldn’t call it full blown “purchase regret” but it feels like I am continually having to defend my decision to get treatment and remind myself why I am doing this.
In the meantime, I should put this stuff to one side and get on with some work. Feels like I have a mistress who is constantly trying to distract me from my real life, family, friends …